Thirty, flirty and… finding my footing
When I was younger I had this idea in my head of what my life “should” be like by the time I turned thirty. Having grown up watching Nancy Meyers films on repeat I’d imagined marrying my high school sweetheart, having an amazing job, a perfectly curated home, a few little kids on the way… I could go on and on, but you get the picture. Low and behold, my curiosity, creativity and zest for life had other plans for me.
Fast forward to my late twenties, I’d fully immersed myself into a career in the outdoor industry, moved twice to a new cities and was navigating finding my way in this world. I’ll admit “adulting” was much more challenging than any book, tv show or influencer had alluded to. Throughout these years, I learned the importance of prioritizing my physical, mental and emotional. I started to discover what I was really passionate about both professionally and personally. I cultivated close friendships and community that I’m so proud of, and really grateful for. And lastly, what I know you’re all probably wondering. Yes, I dated. Some really great guys, that but as the saying goes there are people for a season, reason or a lifetime. I’m still holding out for, and really excited to meet, my lifetime partner.
But then thirty started to creep up and I began putting a lot of pressure on myself. I started thinking about life milestones, “timelines” and what it meant to be succesful. I caught myself starting to feel, well, behind. The thing is, when you start to feel that way you’re comparing yourself to others. I felt guilty and uncomfortable for feeling this way. I’m so incredibly happy, supportive and proud of my friends. The feeling continued to linger under the surface, and at times I felt stuck, blocked and unsure of my path.
Through therapy, conversations with loved ones, listening to podcasts and reflecting I’ve made progress in not only accepting where I am, but really embracing it. As cliché as it is, I’m leaning in by being more present and trusting the process. Granted, this can be easier said than done, depending on the day. But I truly believe that progress over perfection, maintaining perspective and being consistent can lead to long term, lasting change. I’m hopeful that I can give myself the grace to love this stage of life. I’m thirty, flirty (more to come on that) and finding my footing so I can thrive.
If you’re reading this and have felt this way, I hope you find some comfort knowing you’re not alone. I’m here for you and would love to connect. My comments, dms or texts are always open to chat.
